The difference one day makes!

I find it interesting that the last week was sooooo difficult for me and I felt bitter and frustrated and then on top of it I was supposed to teach a lesson on the joy of womanhood. Talk about feeling inadequate! But when I went to church yesterday, something happened. One of the speakers talked about self worth and how we are important to God and it made me take a step back and think about that. I know that God loves me, but I think that I was so consumed with what was going on with me that I forgot what that really means.

Sometimes it just feels like a nice thing to say or think, but I REALLY matter to Him. He knows all the tears I have for feeling like I'm not enough and that my kids deserve better, or when I just want to fall into bed and my mind just won't stop thinking and worrying. And for the first time in over a week I honestly felt peace and comfort. This whole time I was trying to figure out how to change my situation or how to get past this phase of my life and then it hit me like a ton of bricks! I am the one that is making it difficult!!!

I decided to change my attitude and really pray for help and I feel so happy about my life and where it is right now. I have had more fun with my kids, more love for my husband, more patience and I feel so lucky! For the lesson I taught yesterday (in YW) I asked a few people to talk about their joy they've found in womanhood and it amazed me how different their points of view were and what they each emphasized. We are all so different, but I felt so connected to them. We all have struggles, but I feel so blessed to know that my prayers are heard and life really is GOOD! They aren't just nice words. I truly feel happy!