Tuesday, June 12, 2018

Some much needed air...












We were nearing the end of the school year. Zac and I were excited to go to Owen's Life Skill's class's program. We had been to both the boys school programs with their classes (main stream), since they spend time in both classrooms. We went all together, hoping to watch a cute video  and have a good day with our boys. Well, us being there is not part of Owen's routine and so instead of being excited to see us, like a lot of the other kids were, he threw a fit and we stood out in a group of special needs kids and their families.

Some things just sting more than others. This made for a really painful and emotional day, and luckily I have a wonderful husband that said "we should get out and go for a walk". Talk about following the spirit. We went together and the kids did great. We were able to step away from our lives and remember all that God has given us and how blessed we truly are. So grateful for a good husband and despite occasional setbacks, INCREDIBLE kids!!!!

Monday, June 4, 2018

Color Run










My best friend and I did the 5k Color Run (can you tell) a few weeks ago in Logan. It was a lot of fun and we both got a better speed than last year. We did it!!!

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Owen

Some things make you feel old. For me this week it's Owen. He is 9, tall and so grown up. I love this boy more than anything. My kids are my whole world. I love watching him grown up, learn new things and just amaze me day after day. I am one lucky mama!


Monday, May 21, 2018

This is me

As a woman, I wear lots of hats. I'm a wife, a mother, a friend, a sister, a neighbor, an advocate, a chef, a driver...it goes on an on. I know who I am. I am a happy and hard working woman. I try, I fail, I try again. This is the story of my life. And most of the time I am really okay with it. I know that I am never going to win wife or mother of the year or that I won't make us millions, but I have a job. I have a purpose. I am here to make life as good as I can for my family as well as for me.

My goal in this life is to work hard and make others feel loved. I tend to think about this more when someone else looks more put together or does more with their kids, or whatever it is. It's always been interesting to me how easy it is to compare, but so much harder to see the good within the flaws. Thank you for listening, hearing and caring. We are all wonderful and have a part to play.


Sunday, May 13, 2018

Mother's Day

   I am so blessed to be a mother. I am so blessed to have two boys that I love. I want to like Mother's Day...I really do. But I won't lie, sometimes it's just painful. I think a lot of the gratification of being a mother is the reward of affection, hugs and words of gratitude from your child. I ache for that sometimes and I struggle when I see what my world is. My kids aren't very affectionate (especially Owen) and they don't have the verbal skills to say thank you and I love you...

  




That small part of my life is hard. Watching other kids what mine aren't doing is hard. Wondering how long my life will look like this is hard. But, I look at the good kids I have, how happy they are, how smart they are and how hard they try. It doesn't take all the pain from my mother heart, but it does ease the ache. I love my boys more than anything and I feel so honored to be their mom.

Friday, May 11, 2018

Life

My life is full. My life is crazy. My life is really good. Sometimes I feel like I talk a little too much about autism, but I honestly don't know how to not do that. It's my world, it's my every day. It affects how we all eat, how we sleep, the function of every day...I learned a long time ago that life is what you make it. Every single day for me holds challenges, adjustment and change. Lucky for me, I think most people are the same. We all have things in life that we can't control or change, but we can control our actions and thoughts. I wish I could say that every day brings a fresh perspective, but some days are wonderful and some are really really hard.

I think the best thing that I've learned especially lately, is to be grateful and mindful of blessings. There is a lot of hard in my life, but is undeniably a lot of good too. Kids that show growth and improvement in any form, happy kids, a loving husband, good teachers, good therapists, supportive family...the list goes on and on. I am so blessed autism or not. Nothing good in my life is limited to me when I can focus on the good. I truly am blessed!

Monday, April 30, 2018

Snuggles


They may not have showed a lot of enthusiasm when we got home, but we got a few good days of pure snuggles! Love it!!!