The other side of things!

Ok, so I decided that I am tired of feeling sorry for myself. I just needed to explain that some days push me to the limit. I am feeling a lot better now and a little more able to balance my life. (Part of that is both my kids are sleeping). :) Anyway, I have been thinking about all of our blessings, and although some days feel discouraging and I just want to give up, I remember how much my kids need me and how much I honestly need them.

I look at so many people that go through and are going through things so much more difficult than what we are facing. Zac and I are in a happy loving marriage. Our kids are happy and healthy and growing and developing. The rate isn't overly important right now as long as they're learning. We have an amazing support system. Family, friends, and our ward family have been nothing but loving and supportive and encouraging. I feel like this is Heavenly Father's way of saying I know this is hard, but look at what you get in return.

I feel like I have been able to help or encourage others that have gone through what I've been going through and that they have been equally helpful. We have multiple resources and specialists who are striving every single time we meet them to help and give advice. I know that it's okay to be angry at times and frustrated and just want to scream or cry, but I feel like it is equally important for everyone that knows us to understand that we see the joy and blessings of each day too. Every small thing (to most people) is something we celebrate in our house. Every milestone is a blessing.

There are a million things I love about my children. They make me want to work hard and be a better person and set a good example. They make me laugh and smile and I want to call my entire family every time Owen says a new word. We are truly blessed and most of the time we are genuinely happy. We are so grateful to see God's hand in our lives, leading us to the right people and doctors and reminding us that we are doing ok. Thank you for your thoughts and words and unending support. We are so lucky to have such good people in our lives.