There are a few things that have been clear to me lately and one of them is that I usually just post pictures and so I thought I would post what I'm thinking every once and awhile. So here are a few of those things that I've realized:
1. I have worked really hard with Owen to help him to learn how to talk and communicate and to help it click in his mind that if he uses his words we will be able to communicate with each other. I've realized that if this doesn't happen before he goes to school that doesn't mean that I've failed him, it just means that he isn't ready to talk yet. Removing this worry from my mind has made it easier to just play with him and enjoy his fun little personality more.
2. I LOVE to feel like my life is in balance. The house is clean, dinner is in the oven, scriptures and ensign are read, a full night's sleep, a smile on my face, a list of on-going projects...and so I've realized that I'm human and I don't have to be perfect to be a good person or a good wife/mom. It just gives me something to eventually get to.
3. It's okay for me to want time for me. This one is still a struggle. I like to take time for me, but sometimes I feel like I can't do that without inconveniencing someone else. I just need to let go and feel like me and not just a mom.
4. I am extremely grateful for my family (this includes Zac's family). We had a reunion lately and it was the most fun I've had in a long time and although family pictures were stressful and emotional (Owen doesn't want to be held or sit still and it's one of those times when he just feels different from other kids) but during our little emotional breakdown, my sweet sister-in-law put her arms around me and just let me cry. I just felt like she really understood. I love her and all my family!
5. My kids are my whole life and I would do anything to make them happy and know that they are loved!
6. On a lighter note, I take A LOT of pictures!
Glad to hear your 'voice' every now and then. I'm the same way lately, though. Love you girl! You are amazing to me!
ReplyDeleteTotally understand the word thing. It is a constant challenge to get Rigden to say words and communicate what he wants and needs, but stressing out about it certainly isn't worth it. And I understand about the family pic thing! It's pretty much impossible to get a good picture of our family. Rig doesn't usually want to look at the camera and Em just wants to run away! I guess that's good for me as a photographer so I can learn to be better at taking pics of other people because kids are a challenge, especially special needs kids (but definitely a frustration for myself and getting pics of us)!
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