Silly boy

This kid is so funny! He will fall asleep in the craziest places all the time. We love this little goofball!!!!

Refit Certified

Not everyone knows what Refit is, it is an exercise class that I love. A couple of years ago, a friend of mine invited me to go to an exercise class. I loved it from the beginning. The instructor made it so fun and enjoyable! I even got the confidence to get up there and dance with them side by side from time to time. I felt better about myself and my self image. The thing I loved about it too, was that there was a message shared at the end of every class. The music was uplifting and fun and I just loved it. So, when the founders of Refit made it to Logan and taught a certification class, I was all over it. I teach (with my friend) twice a week for free at our church building. I am still learning and figuring out the ins and outs, but I did it! I stepped out of my comfort zone and I love it!!!!

Some much needed air...

We were nearing the end of the school year. Zac and I were excited to go to Owen's Life Skill's class's program. We had been to both the boys school programs with their classes (main stream), since they spend time in both classrooms. We went all together, hoping to watch a cute video  and have a good day with our boys. Well, us being there is not part of Owen's routine and so instead of being excited to see us, like a lot of the other kids were, he threw a fit and we stood out in a group of special needs kids and their families.

Some things just sting more than others. This made for a really painful and emotional day, and luckily I have a wonderful husband that said "we should get out and go for a walk". Talk about following the spirit. We went together and the kids did great. We were able to step away from our lives and remember all that God has given us and how blessed we truly are. So grateful for a good husband and despite occasional setbacks, INCREDIBLE kids!!!!

Color Run

My best friend and I did the 5k Color Run (can you tell) a few weeks ago in Logan. It was a lot of fun and we both got a better speed than last year. We did it!!!

Owen

Some things make you feel old. For me this week it's Owen. He is 9, tall and so grown up. I love this boy more than anything. My kids are my whole world. I love watching him grown up, learn new things and just amaze me day after day. I am one lucky mama!

This is me

As a woman, I wear lots of hats. I'm a wife, a mother, a friend, a sister, a neighbor, an advocate, a chef, a driver...it goes on an on. I know who I am. I am a happy and hard working woman. I try, I fail, I try again. This is the story of my life. And most of the time I am really okay with it. I know that I am never going to win wife or mother of the year or that I won't make us millions, but I have a job. I have a purpose. I am here to make life as good as I can for my family as well as for me.

My goal in this life is to work hard and make others feel loved. I tend to think about this more when someone else looks more put together or does more with their kids, or whatever it is. It's always been interesting to me how easy it is to compare, but so much harder to see the good within the flaws. Thank you for listening, hearing and caring. We are all wonderful and have a part to play.

Mother's Day

   I am so blessed to be a mother. I am so blessed to have two boys that I love. I want to like Mother's Day...I really do. But I won't lie, sometimes it's just painful. I think a lot of the gratification of being a mother is the reward of affection, hugs and words of gratitude from your child. I ache for that sometimes and I struggle when I see what my world is. My kids aren't very affectionate (especially Owen) and they don't have the verbal skills to say thank you and I love you...

  

That small part of my life is hard. Watching other kids what mine aren't doing is hard. Wondering how long my life will look like this is hard. But, I look at the good kids I have, how happy they are, how smart they are and how hard they try. It doesn't take all the pain from my mother heart, but it does ease the ache. I love my boys more than anything and I feel so honored to be their mom.