Mothers Day Party

 Okay, I will be honest. This was a rough day for me. I was so glad that I got to go to this fun little party that the preschool did, but it was tough. The kids started out in a circle and then were told that they could go give hugs and sit by their moms. Well, most of the kids jumped up super excited and both my boys, (one is in the morning class and one is in the afternoon class) just sat there and had to be guided to me. Now, both my kids are in a special needs preschool class and so I know these moms aren't judging me, but it is still a painful experience to have your kids be the ones that are having a harder time in a room filled with kids with special needs.

We did some group games like decorating cupcakes, taking a picture together and then making a frame, a pin the the pedals on the flower game, and preparing flowers for mom. At each station a lot of things were fun and I was having a good time. There were just a few things that made it tricky. William was getting really restless. (Both my kids thrive on routine and this was very out of routine). Owen even tried to climb on the table. Man, that kid is huge. There was a point when there was some downtime and one of the aids was asking the kids what their favorite thing to do with their mom was and both my kids just sat on the floor.

I think sometimes I forget that they have autism. I forget that they are different from any other kid. They are so happy and loving and do so well at home and in their routines, that moments like that are like a lightning bolt and just make it hard to be happy for a few days.

That being said, I just kept thinking how much I loved them. How much I wanted to be there even though it was hard. Some days are challenging, but it is easy for me to remember all the good days too. All the times Owen says a new word or William makes a new sound. Lately, William will climb up on my lap and just stare at me and smile and then pinch my cheeks. Life really is good and I am so happy. I just think I need to be a little more emotionally prepared next time.   :)